#I’ve had this account since 2018-2019

[meowkid1000]

YEAAAAAAHHHH MY BANG DREAM ACCOUNT WASNT GONE FOREVER ‼️‼️‼️‼️

[gabrielleragusi]

For Artists: My Experience with Commission Platforms and Illustration Agencies

Hi there! I’ve been wanting to compile a list of commission platforms that I’ve personally used for the longest time, and I finally did it! I’ve highlighted the still-active commission platforms in bold and struck those that don't exist anymore so you can jump to the sections that interest you without needing to read my entire story.

Let me start by briefly introducing myself.

I’m Gabrielle, a fantasy illustrator. Since 2014, I’ve been working on book covers and illustrations for publishers, authors, and book subscription boxes. Early on, work wasn’t as frequent as it is now. I had to search for opportunities myself, and even small private commissions were important for building my portfolio and earning some money, which I’d spend on materials, books, and online courses. Like many other artists, I started out by trying my luck with the biggest art community available at the time.

DeviantArt

2009-2018

Once upon a time, there was a virtual haven called DeviantArt. To my teenage self, it was a magical place. I signed up in 2009 and thought I’d never leave!

At first, I created an account just to share my work and learn. I didn’t even think about commissions for four or five years. But when that first inquiry finally landed in my inbox, things took off! My mum swears she remembers my excitement when I got my first commission, but for some reason, I’ve completely forgotten about it. I can't remember what it was or how much it paid. It might have been a portrait of a fantasy character.

Commissions on DeviantArt were fairly frequent, especially considering my cheap prices at the time. I used to offer discounts and post my rates in my DeviantArt journal, or in Commission groups that featured artists either monthly or weekly. After checking out my profile, a client could simply send me a private message and from there, we’d discuss payment, deadlines, and other details, and the platform didn’t take any fees, much like how ArtStation works today. Everything happened through private messages or email, with direct contact between artist and client.

The downside of this process was that there was no dispute resolution system on the platform. I had to handle all issues myself, and unfortunately, problems did arise sometimes: there were clients changing their minds about commissions, asking for refunds after work was delivered, refusing to pay, or just ghosting me. These issues didn’t happen because clients were evil, but rather because I was inexperienced and allowed some to take advantage of my naivety.

However, all that frustration helped me develop my commission process through trial and error (mostly error). And despite the challenges, I can say with satisfaction that most of the commissions I received through my DeviantArt profile were positive experiences.

DeviantArt eventually introduced a commission feature for Core (Premium) users, which came with a platform fee, but I didn’t use it much, and I’m not sure if it still exists.

The real beauty of dA, though, was the connections I made. I was able to meet people, both artists and clients, that I’m still in contact with today, and some of whom I still collaborate with.

I closed my account in 2018 or 2019, but by that time, I hadn’t really used it for a couple of years. The new user interface was a bit of a turn-off for me. I had always loved the geeky, and dare I say cozy, look of the old green and grey aesthetic, with its customisable panels that you could move around and personalise with HTML code... But I digress.

Artists and Clients

2013-2016

While taking small commissions on DeviantArt, I discovered Artists & Clients. It was a nice platform for clients to get things like their D&D characters or groups illustrated for relatively cheap. I think my highest price was $50 for a single character portrait, with the platform taking a 15% cut. I used it for about two or three years before the platform started to change.

As more artists with hentai art styles flooded in, the homepage shifted, and so did the clientele. There’s nothing wrong with drawing naked anime girls, of course, but you can understand that if a client is looking for a fantasy, semi-realistic painting of their female orc character, or a realistic portrait of their spouse, it's more than likely that they won't bother sifting through a sea of anime girls to find the style they want, imagining it isn't here. Let's just say that, at the time, the website took a definite direction that wasn't in line with my genre, but this direction didn't make the different, more realistic art styles stand out either.

Soon, commissions slowed down for me, so I closed my account, but by then I was already working elsewhere.

That said, this platform could still be a useful tool if you’re looking to take on smaller commissions.

DreamUp

2014-2015

DreamUp wasn’t an AI generator back then. It was actually a subsidiary of DeviantArt, where clients could post projects and artists could apply. It was a competitive platform that offered well-paid work–very well-paid. I remember seeing jobs posted that ranged from $300 to $1,200. DreamUp was a very professional platform for clients with a mid to high budget.

I believe I landed my very first book cover commission through this website when I was in my last year of high school. I remember getting the job and going to school the next morning, excited to share the news with my classmates. Everyone was super thrilled for me (we were a really close-knit class!), and I felt like I was walking on air.

Unfortunately, as far as I know, that book was never released, but it didn’t matter because I was moving forward, and fast.

I’m not sure when DreamUp was shut down, but I do know that DeviantArt held onto the copyrighted name, assigning it to something so anti-old DreamUp that it still boggles my mind.

ArtCorgi

Now Artistree

2014-2019

When I received an invitation to join ArtCorgi from its founder, I already had a somewhat consistent portfolio. I was painting portraits and fantasy illustrations, and the clients on this platform were looking for both–your typical wedding and pet portraits, as well as book covers, which were what really interested me. To get to the latter, I had to do the former. Over the years, I’ve painted so many realistic portraits that now I have a strict rule for my own sanity not to do them any more. I have great respect for portrait artists, but it’s just not me.

When I first submitted my prices to the person I was in contact with, she kindly suggested that I raise them... a lot. That was a major step forward in my professional career. I went from charging $50 to $100/$200 overnight. And to my surprise, people actually wanted to commission me at those prices!

From 2014 to 2019, I took nearly every commission that came my way. I never spoke directly with the clients; all instructions and feedback went through my point of contact, which helped maintain a level of professionalism, although now that I’m used to working directly with clients, I’m not sure I’d want to go back to having an intermediary.

Sadly, as with all good things, this chapter came to an end. My point of contact eventually left communication in the hands of someone else, and shortly after, the commission fee changed to, I believe, 30%.

Simply put, 30% is an unrealistic cut for a website like this. For an agent that gets you all kinds of big work in the publishing industry, sure, but since this was not the case I had to stop taking commissions. Despite that, my overall experience with ArtCorgi was very positive.

Today, ArtCorgi joined another platform, Artistree. As far as I can tell, Artistree doesn’t take any fees from artists, with clients covering a small cost instead.

Sketchmob (?)

2016-2020

This was probably the platform I used the most. I’ve lost count of how many commissions I received through Sketchmob. Many. Enough to generate a steady income at the time. With reasonable fees and a variety of art styles available, clients contacted me almost daily. Communication was direct between artists and clients, and payments could be split. The review system also worked very well… for a while.

Once I raised my prices, requests became fewer and farther apart. But by then, I was already working with my own clients.

Is this platform still active? Who knows. The website is still up and the chat feature works, but I’ve seen users complain that money available for withdrawal never arrived via PayPal (the only payment method the platform accepted, if I remember correctly). Personally, I wouldn’t risk completing a job through Sketchmob right now, at least not until they release an update.

If you’ve used the platform recently and successfully received payment within the last six months, please let me know, and I’d be happy to update this section!

Upwork

2017-2019

In 2017, I was determined to break into the book publishing industry. After trying out Fiverr and Freelancer.com with no success (the competition was too fierce for someone just starting out), I decided to give Upwork a shot. The platform looked very professional, and while the process sounded a bit complicated, I wanted to land the interesting projects I saw featured in my category. I really wanted to work with a big client��� but big clients didn’t seem to want me, despite having the Rising Talent badge.

In two years of bidding for jobs and submitting proposals, I only landed two projects: a small commission from a private client who actually reached out to me, and another project that I bid on.

Don’t get me wrong, I was ecstatic at the time and truly appreciated every opportunity that came my way. But looking back, I can see why Upwork didn’t work out for me. The platform just wasn’t the right fit for my style and niche, which is fantasy illustration. Graphic design, however, was (and still is) in much higher demand.

The commission process on Upwork wasn’t as simple as on other platforms. For instance, at the time, costs were calculated hourly, which was a challenge for someone like me who prefers working with flat fees (having already calculated my average hours spent on an illustration). From what I’ve seen, this has since changed.

One positive aspect of Upwork is its current 10% cut on what artists earn. I don’t recall if this has changed over the years, but 10% is quite reasonable in my experience. Of course, 0% would be even better, but for a platform as large as Upwork, 10% is fair.

Illustration Agency

2019-2021

By 2019, I had built a solid, consistent portfolio thanks to my personal work and commissions. I had a simple website in place, my Instagram following was growing… I was steadily working toward my goal of illustrating covers for big publishers (which didn't happen until two years ago).

So, when an illustration agency reached out to me one day, I was over the moon. I had always heard that artists were the ones who had to approach agencies, not the other way around.

Well, that should have been my first red flag.

I won’t name this agency because, unfortunately, I have nothing positive to say about it. In fact, the word “nothing” perfectly describes my involvement with them. Nothing came of this barely there experience.

The agency invited me to sign up, not on an exclusive basis, but they assured me they’d get me work. That work never came. Once in a while, I’d receive messages saying they were trying to pitch my portfolio to a French publisher or another client, but... nothing.

Please understand that meanwhile I was already working directly with shops and authors, so I don’t believe my portfolio was the problem. The real issue was something I didn’t realise at the time: some agencies do this. They feature talented artists in their catalogue without having actual clients lined up, just to appear more professional and credible to potential clients. Did this strategy work for them? Maybe. I’ll never know.

In 2021, I politely asked them to remove my portfolio from their website, and that was the end of it.

After that, I never actively sought out an agent again. By the time my portfolio was strong enough to approach a serious agency, I just didn’t need representation anymore.

Hireillo

2019-2022

My experience with Hire an Illustrator, or Hireillo, is mixed. At the time, Hireillo was a platform that hosted artists' portfolios, featured artist-submitted news, provided useful articles, resources, and directories of artists and agents. I joined the site hoping to catch the eye of publishers, but I was mostly contacted by authors and one fellow artist for a graphic novel.

Unfortunately, most inquiries didn’t go beyond the first couple of messages due to budget constraints. I did, however, have fun sharing news about my painting process and projects I landed on my own, which were often featured by the website. Additionally, if I had questions about 'complicated' things like copyright, or just needed advice, I could ask the website’s owner and that was incredibly helpful.

Despite these benefits, I didn’t see any real results, which was a little disappointing. The subscription fee was also... odd, for lack of a better word. $5 per week. In the end I just couldn’t justify the cost, so I stopped using the website altogether.

Reedsy

2019-2022

Finally, we come to the turning point.

I remember stumbling upon Reedsy randomly. It wasn’t very well known at the time, and I think it still isn’t. I was nervous when I submitted my portfolio because their catalogue features the best of the best: designers who’ve created covers for bestsellers, THE bestsellers, people who’ve worked on Stephen King covers, or George R.R. Martin's. Designers, editors, and marketers who are veterans. I didn’t have high hopes for my application. So, I was in shock when it got accepted.

I had an introductory Skype call with a representative from Reedsy, who explained how everything worked. Before the call ended, I remember asking if there was a good chance I’d get work through the platform. The rep laughed and said, “Yes.”

A few weeks in, I understood that laugh.

Reedsy has an overwhelming demand for book covers and commercial projects. For every designer there are many more clients. In peak seasons, I was getting requests almost every day. I’m not exaggerating.

Reedsy transformed my portfolio and my pricing structure. Thanks to the income I earned through the platform, I was finally able not to take everything that came my way but be selective and choose only the projects that really interested me.

The commission process is simple: artists pretty much decide how to split payments, what to include in agreements, and the best part, the most beautiful and helpful feature of all, they can request and adjust deadlines. For someone like me who's terrible with deadlines, this feature was a lifesaver. The admins are also very kind and responsive, available via email or chat.

Unfortunately (this is my last 'unfortunately', I promise), my time on Reedsy came to an end for personal reasons. I’ll explain since it’s no secret.

All my images on Reedsy were watermarked with my signature (my full name), which apparently violated the platform’s rules. Why? Because if a client saw my last name, they could contact me directly and bypass Reedsy, which meant the platform lost potential fees. I’ll admit this did happen a few times, but I had the good sense to redirect the client back to Reedsy.

After three years, an admin finally noticed and asked me to remove my full name from the watermark and any text on my profile. It was a simple and reasonable request, but here’s where the problem started. Profiles on Reedsy are public, and images appear in search engines like Google Images, meaning anyone could download my work and use it without permission. Sure, watermarks can be removed, but uploading my work without one in the first place felt like a bad idea. Btw, not only do I use watermarks, but I also use Glaze to protect my illustrations before sharing them online.

Anyway, for this reason, and also because I couldn’t get over the fact that full names were public at the time, something I won’t get into because, believe me, I tried over email, and my reasons went into the void (now, last names are just initialised, like Gabrielle R. Okay. Sure.), I had to close my account–they would have done it anyway because it was already 'flagged'.

Overall, if you’re willing to overlook the last name conundrum, I can’t recommend Reedsy enough. If you have a killer, solid portfolio and a love for books and editorial projects, go for it!

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I hope you'll find this useful! If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask (: Oh, and here's an old article I wrote in 2020, titled:

Tips to freelance illustrators to avoid being screwed over

Who knows, maybe I'll write another 'article' post in four years!

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[jinjuomo]

For anyone that’s been on the tumblr side of the fandom since 2016-2019 and is still active, do you guys ever remember seeing a user on here making an animatic of Harrison to a fanmade song that was about him?

Because I vividly remembered around 2018-19, the tumblr user transharrison/minecraftworm (both accounts gone now) made an animatic to the song— which was originally posted on Instagram by a different user from IG, who actually composed the song themselves and wrote it to be about Harrison.

The original post and song itself had this specific art as the cover on it from Instagram (art belongs to hyperboy117.. though I’m not sure since the WM is hard to see)

I don’t remember the exact lyrics or how the whole song went by (it’s been 6-5 years since I’ve last heard it)— but there was a part in the song where it went, “Soon enough you’ll know— this is just another trick” before it goes on “lalalala” with an acoustic guitar playing on and on.

I know that the animatic is gone, and I’m certain the person who composed the song also deleted their post.. but I want to know who made the song at least. I’ve been thinking about this song and the animatic for so long, I just wanna see it again.. I can’t find archives of it anywhere 💔

[enigma020]

If you have time can you pls draw asriel x fuko fire or papyrus x red from noveltale

I GOTCHU bud! :D

Okay, Exhibit No. 1:

NOVEL!Papyrus X NOVEL!Red/Lara!

By far, one of the COOLEST concept designs I’ve ever made for NOVEL!Papyrus, by the way. One of my favorite designs for a character since it’s a combined mix of both Pre-Noveltale Papyrus’ sentry armor and Noveltale Papyrus’ Royal Guard armor. I mean, JUST LOOK AT THAT BLASTER HELM AIN’T THAT COOL? :D NOVEL!Red/Lara’s design, on the other hand, was inspired by Epictale’s Red/Lara and the original Undertale Red.

Their ship dynamic was simple. Back in either 2018 or 2019, when I first saw and watched Undertale Red, I had this thought. What if Red/Lara, a Royal Guard, trained Papyrus, a sentry, in secret and developed during training? And at the time, Zachary still had the role of the second fallen human adopted by Gaster and was a member of the Bone Brothers. Given the opportunity to do so, I chose to let Zachary help arrange some stuff so that the two could actually form a really close connection, eventually giving better character growth between the two. Now, those thoughts alone were a stupid reason to ship the two still, I know- But a few months, if not an entire year later, I came across a BUNCH of fanart of the two in the internet, making me realize that the thought might actually not matter at all since a lot of people were shipping em too-

And then 2020 came, I finally, FINALLY got myself a Tumblr account and found Yugo’s Tumblr, I continued to read their Epictale comics, specifically the remake and oh boy I GOT REAL HOOKED AGAIN LIKE HOW I FIRST DID WHEN I SAW THE OLD ONE IN LIKE GOOGLE BACK WHEN I WAS A FIRST YEAR HIGHSCHOOL BOY :D- and then I continued working on how to improve on character growth for the two. And just right before I cancelled the AU, I did plan to make it so that Papyrus was a Royal Trainee and Red/Lara was a Royal Guard, trained by Undyne and gets along with the Royal Hounds (The dogs) like in the original Undertale Red lore.

The final idea was that she would assist him through both Snowdin and Waterfall Patrols, often helping her with hers as well. And then they develop through time and then- y’all get the point-

Anyway, ONTO EXHIBIT 2, also known as the last exhibit for today:

NOVEL!Asriel Dreemurr X NOVEL!Fuku Fire!

Their concept was simple. It all came from three crucial thoughts. (There were more, but let’s focus on just the three crucial ones-)

“What if Asriel and Chara lived?” “How would Asriel’s childhood life had gone if he had survived with Chara.” “What would’ve Asriel’s relationship be with Fuku if they had met?” Now of course, I made headcanons for that-

Basically, two childhood best friends who developed while growing up, bonus that they both have the same magic, fire magic. Chara would’ve been there to witness it all happen, being the first person to see the two develop a very deep friendship, and eventually develop feelings for one another and they would’ve also been there to help Asriel in finally getting him to tell her that he likes her and to make him realize that she likes him too.

In the earlier version of Pre-Noveltale, AKA Histale, Zachary would’ve been the second human ally for the Royal family. He would’ve been one of Asriel’s best friends too who’d try to find Asriel a girlfriend while growing up together in the underground.

Not gonna lie, I bet the kid would be real happy if he knew that, even though I cancelled it in the end, Asriel finally got one after 8 years of the AU’s development 🥹

[astonmartinii]

F1 ASKS!

i saw this tag floating around and wanted to let yall get to know me better since i’ve been doing this a while and have only really spoken in the form of authors notes! also im not going to tag anyone so just do it if you wanna!

who is your favourite driver?

i think for anyone who has read anything i’ve ever written it’s probably a bit obvious but max verstappen! what can i say little me was told we’re supporting red bull and here was this little charmer (emphasis on little who let that child get into an F1 car)

do you have other favourite drivers?

also based on my writing you can probably tell that my top three are max, charles and oscar! however, i will also say that alex is a close fourth for me (he’s also very nice irl). also as for retired drivers i think the mamma mia series is a bit of a spoiler but i love jenson, seb and kimi

who is your least favourite driver?

i used to say i didn’t dislike anyone on the grid - that was a lie. i’ll still write for anyone within reason but you can also probably tell with how in detail the back and forth is on certain pieces that i am really not a fan of sainz, actually people who get yelled at while i write them would argue it’s more than “not really being a fan of” but i am fake and i have maintained that if i meet him at silverstone (which i very nearly did last year) ill tell him im his biggest fan! also not the biggest fan of like pierre he’s just kinda there for me and a wee bit too cringey ALSO what you may not be able to guess from how i write him… im not really a fan of lando! ive really, really tried especially after his win but he just kinda rubs me the wrong way (i was immediately proven right with the trump comments lol). people say i should pull for him cause he’s from bristol which is where i live but he’s from glastonbury babe - also ive done a few swimming competitions at the school he went to a WOAH baby has so much money.

do you pull for drivers or do you like teams as well?

i mostly pull for drivers but like i guess i like red bull? well i did. i love max so i would follow him everywhere but i did like red bull as well as a team (i like alex, danny and checo so that also helps) but this whole protection of christian horner shtick is really disappointing so id say im a driver person.

if you like teams, who do you pull for?

like i said red bull were the team id pick if i HAD to follow a team - i support chelsea so i cant handle even more disappointment if i followed ferrari and also i only like charles there and they’re the source of all of his misfortune so …

how long have you been into F1?

so my family has always been into F1, my cousin karts and my uncle is a mechanic and makes karts on the side but i had always been more into football cause i could actually go to that with my dad - and also for young me who didn’t know what the fuck a strategy was it seemed kinda boring. but i’d say from maybe 2016ish i started watching it more regularly (hence the max stanship). my mum loves it and her first love in the sport was mark webber which is why we like red bull. but yeah i remember watching max’s first win and was like MUM I WANT THAT ONE (and i have technically met him? idk we made eye contact when his taxi nearly ran over my foot)

what got you into F1?

my mum! i love her and she’s just as much a passionate fan (and hater when appropriate) so it’s a nice thing to do together - especially because me and my dad are season ticket holders at chelsea so spend a lot of time together doing that so this is like my sport time with my mum (along with the olympics that’s our shit we’re very excited for the swimming). so i guess it was being around her watching it and listening to her and my dad argue about it! my mum is an ardent seb supporter and my dad is like a twitter account away from being in teamLH so canada 2018 (2019?) was VERY entertaining. also my uncle loves it so he likes that im proper into it (like have a sports journalism degree) and so we always chat about it - he’s trying to recruit me into motogp next

do you enjoy fanfic/RPF?

i mean i’ve written so much i must love it. lol jokes i do enjoy it and i feel like it helps me like people more (case in point: when i was trying to make myself enjoy the lando win i just read my own fics of him LOL)

but also its something fun to do that’s also creative and has helped me make new friends from all over

how do you view new fans?

ugh i hate the hate new fans get like not everyone can be born into loving a sport? if anything the more people that watch and love the sport the more money it’ll make? idk this whole superiority complex some fans have is just so unneeded for the sport and we all know why is majorly directed at girls. i do fear that some of the new fan behaviours could border on worrying - waiting outside hotels and ambushing drivers is stalking actually!

but overall im always happy to have new people in a sport - a bigger community is always good and new fans bring new perspectives which is good as older fans may just be desensitised to “normal” things in the sport but new eyes can remind them - hey halos are the best thing to happen to F1 and red flags in heavy rain are necessary.

if you could take over as any team principal for any team who would it be and why?

i know i previously dunked on ferrari but there needs to be an intervention because my girly max already has three championships and i need charles to get at least one so i can die happy - then ill move to mclaren, kick zak brown up the ass get a piastri championship and bounce (honourary race with willams or whatever team alex is with cause i need all three 2019 rookies to be race winners)

are your friends and family into F1 as well?

i feel like my other answers answered this but yeah! i also recently reconnected with an old primary school friend who is also really into it. i went to a sports uni so basically everyone there liked it as well (which means me and a friend did trek to the F1 arcade at 4am to watch aus 23 where she had a public meltdown over sainz (i enjoyed it)). also ive made a couple friends through working at races!

are you open to talking to other fans/making friends?

i always am! i am a year out of uni and working from home with all my home friends still at uni after taking gap years so i am big time lonely so always feel free to slide into my messages!

[new-employeeamillion]

I still foolishly dabble in Twitter to see what some of my fellow animation enthusiasts are saying, and one particular SpongeBob tweet annoyed me so much that I’m not even gonna talk about it on that app. It was quoting a segment of the Season 12 episode Shell Games, a fairly standard and innocuous episode, and saying that the plot is an insult to Stephen Hillenburg’s legacy. That was the final straw for me. I can no longer trust the people who aren’t diehard SpongeBob geniuses with Stephen Hillenburg’s name. Especially when they’re blue checkmarks who can benefit from the clout SpongeBob fans will give them.

What was so insulting about Shell Games? Them revealing Patrick’s rock was actually a turtle shell, for one episode, out of nearly 600. I swear, you have less of a reason to be upset over The Principal and the Pauper, and even that’s been an overreaction. I’m not gonna say Shell Games is one of my all time favourites, but I think it’s got enough character with the turtles to make it memorable.

But the gall of that user to transparently have no idea what the show is like now, and still feel the need to stuff the late creator’s name into their opinion to feel better about it. It isn’t 2019 anymore, when Kamp Koral had just been announced and no one had the concrete information on Stephen’s awareness of it. Even back then, my stance on post-Hillenburg SpongeBob stuff has always been “I may not like a lot of it, but I salute the people who he knew continuing to work on it.” How is that such a hard stance to take? Can’t these blue checkmark people have empathy for working class animation teams?

I miss 2015-2018 when the SpongeBob community was more stable. When a Post-Sequel episode aired that the fandom didn’t like, we didn’t jump to “Stephen didn’t want this! Legacy tarnished!”, we discussed what we didn’t like about it and hoped the next episode would be better. A lot of fans still do that, but certainly not the normal people who haven’t even watched the show since they were kids. Fair enough, but if that’s the case, don’t act like an expert out of nowhere. If you were a big fan of Sherlock Holmes, and every single thing made for the past 94 years has had people going “Arthur Conan Doyle didn’t want this! Legacy tarnished!”, you’d understand my antipathy.

Never mind the irony of all this - Stephen Hillenburg was alive when Shell Games was produced. It was the 4th-to-last episode to enter production before he stopped coming in to the studio. Community notes sorted that out quickly. And let me say, you don’t have to like every episode he personally contributed to or oversaw. But come on, why am I expecting nuanced thinking from someone giving Elon Musk their money?

Twitter’s never been a great website, but now, it feels like all the worst people have cracked the code. Only the loudest and angriest voices get the attention, which gets more dangerous the more sensitive the topic is. And then, even if you agree with the sentiment, you will despise the personalities of the very people you’re agreeing with. It’s a platform that encourages all the worst human behaviours. Whenever I so much as make a joke on there, I feel like I’m walking on eggshells. It’ll hurt to see less from accounts I really respect, but I’ll offload it for a little while, because it’s not been good for my mood.

And I’m really sorry that this is yet another long angsty blogpost so soon. It’s been those times for me, and I hope you got some sort of useful lesson from what I’ve typed out.

[dear-space-cadet]

Lucky’s big ol’ Franz Ferdinand compilation post

Hello! I’m Lucky! I had a special interest on Franz Ferdinand from 2014-2020 and was in the franzdom for 6 years. I’ve acquired a ton of links and media that I figured I’d share with y’all since there seems to be a bit of a Franzdom resurgence!

I also ran FranzArchive (need to bring that back) and I was one of the I’ll Try Anything Once authors… if that still runs the fandom. I don’t know if it does. I hope it does….. maybe. Basically I’m the reason for the Steckrübe line in Billy Goodbye 💅 Solly Spacecadet reporting for duty!!!

PS I own Sound Bites and the Franz A-Z book, and since I’m at my parents’ house this weekend I’m going to try to digitize them and put them online somewhere

PPS I’m working on a video essay about Franz and the Franzdom in addition to the archival project. It’s a slow burn but it’s going well and I’ll be doing interviews so if you’re interested lmk!

I also ran (run?) franzdom.ferdinand on insta, I have connections at slacken_ties, and my favorite Franz is Nick McCarthy forever and ever.

PHOTO, VIDEO, MEDIA

GOOGLE DRIVE (all of my pics and rares 2014-2020, def some silly stuff in here but it’s the camera roll of a Franz-obsessed teenage girl)

YOUTUBE (need help archiving this, WE ARE LOSING RECIPES (videos are being lost to time))

@find-the-eyes (the official blog for the Slacken_Ties tribute turned archival project. This is the official account for the Franz Archive so go follow!!!! I’m hoping to bring it back soon)

FIC

OUT OF CONTROL (Schuyler and Rossetti)

UNDER AN OPTIMISTIC SUN (by Bachelorettia. I lose the link to this 24/7 but it’s literally how I met my best friend Alli <3)

UNI FIC (by Bachelorettia)

FIND THE EYES (shameless self promo; this fic was me and a few friends in 2018 and 2019. I was Sol. I was responsible for all the weirdo hurt/comfort stuff in I’ll Try Anything Once. If you think you can come up with an ending to that one or want the rest of the outline to try to finish it yourself lmk. Bc I’d love to see it end!)

NILEX MASTERDOC (bc I am delusional.)

I’ll get working on the physical media side soon, but that’s all I have for you right now :3

With love,

Lucky

[builder051]

Whumpmas in July 2024 day 1: Introduction

Here’s (almost) what I look like. Cred to Fotor for the filter.

Hey, all!

I’m Laur. He/him. I’ve always loved sickfics, both reading them and creating my own. I started off writing for OCs and several different fandoms, but eventually I’ve settled into working within the MCU. I have have ~ 10 different ‘verses ranging canon to AU, and many are focused on different individual characters.

Believe it or not, this is my 8th WIJ (or maybe I pre-date the event? I can’t remember.) Anyway, I’ve been posting fics here since 2017.

At the time I created this account, I training as a professional athlete and dabbling in bodybuilding (hence the name of this blog—the numbers are a random add-on to make the account unique.) I would cross train and swim for an hour every afternoon, then set up the laptop and pour my heart and soul into stories to post on Tumblr. I finally found my writing niche, and I’ve made some best friends for life in the whump/sickfic/emeto community.

My big claim to fame is my completion of the 2018 NaNoWriMo (My total word count was just over 90,000.) I filled the prompt for all 30 days of Novemetober, and I completed the draft of a novel with only 28 days of work. The book has since been published and is available on Amazon. (DM me if you want more info or a link to purchase.)

I used to be able to turn out fics and prompt fills every day, but in 2019 I had some huge health challenges that have slowed me down considerably. The deets aren’t so important, but here are some highlights: the onset of a mental illness, major organ failure, 10+ surgeries with general anesthesia, and three brain injoruous incidents. Now I mostly get around in a power wheelchair. Big change from a few years back.

These days, I have a lot of trouble concentrating, and I have a busy schedule, so my fic and art posts are now few and far between. I still love challenge events like WIJ. I know I won’t be able to answer the question/prompt for every day, but I do have ideas that I’m excited to share.

[kittykittyhunter]

The Archive

Introduction On 14 June 2020, I accidentally deleted my tumblr, wiping out a blog that I had been maintaining since January 2011.  I was distraught due to losing a lot of fond memories – and crushed at the thought of so much of my writing disappearing.  I hadn’t been very disciplined about keeping offline back-ups of my work, so when my blog disappeared, so did a large collection of poems, short stories, vignettes and fanfics.

Over the last few years, I’ve steadily recovered a decent chunk of my writing (about 300 pieces) thanks to my friends reblogging my posts and being diligent with their tagging systems.  I’ve now been able to archive and remaster my poems and prose pieces – though my fanfiction remains in the ether (which, to be honest, I’m okay with). On that note, I would like to express immense gratitude to the people whose blogs I recovered my works from:

alistersangelsong

@brattyhalfpint

caitsylph

@houkou-nrl

jirohoushi

kara-kitsu-x

kasukasumoe

@kidasbrainspace

@kunimitsuchin

lassinajumper

@lenandbonten

@mono-frog

@mon-qi

seethebattlefield

@s-ephiroth

@tacotits

@ten-thousands-hobbits

thunderdownongreenside-archive

I know a lot of these bloggers either are no longer on tumblr or use these accounts (and tumblr wouldn't allow me to tag everyone?); even so, I want to share my thanks. And thank you to everyone else who read, shared or otherwise enjoyed my writing over the years.  I hope that it inspired deep feelings and I hope that it bought you comfort.  I want you to know that I wouldn’t still be pursuing writing if it wasn’t for all the support you sent my way.  I read and savoured your comments and tags and, I promise you, I am grateful for all the love I received. Methodology While it would have been simpler to reblog the old posts, save for those that were trapped under a Read More (and a fair few pieces fell into this category), for this archiving project, I opted to take the opportunity to edit my works (also, I didn’t particularly want to bombard my friends’ notes by reblogging ancient posts).  This gave me a chance to appropriately re-format some works which had, unfortunately, originally looked quite ugly! The editing process was incredibly interesting – I ended up making changes to almost all my posts, so it’s good to know that I’ve definitely grown as a reader and writer over the last decade.  A very small number of the posts were brand new for the blog, but at this stage, I’m happy to count them as part of my archive.  For me, it’s important to compartmentalise and draw a divide between the writing I shared then and the writing that I will, hopefully, go on to pen in the future. I’m still in the process of proofreading: some of my tags have typos and there are certainly some errant dashes, among other issues, here and there.  Nevertheless, I’m satisfied with the state of things for now. Some posts are titled [‘Circa …’].  If I had been savvier about using tumblr mobile in conjunction with the web version, I could have recovered all of the exact dates of my original posts.  However, what’s done is done and I am satisfied with what I was able to accomplish. Statistics I love numbers – here are some interesting graphs regarding my posts:

Posts by Form - Prose – 37 - Poems – 271 Total – 308

No. of Posts by Year - 2012 – 1 - 2013 – 4 - 2014 – 21 - 2015 – 61 - 2016 – 114 - 2017 – 44 - 2018 – 22 - 2019 – 16 - 2020 – 20 - 2022 – 4 - 2024 – 1 Total – 308 There’s definitely a lot of writing that I wasn’t able to track down: in 2016, for example, I believe that I posted 366 poems.  Still, I’m pleased with the works that I did find – it was great to rediscover works that I’d completely forgotten about. I think that draws this post to a close.  Thanks for reading!

[obsessivelollipoplalala]

I don't know if you there att but I feel like between the surge of fans in 2018 and 2019 in the twitter and instagram fandom ( I came to tumblr way late so I wouldn't know what went on here ) there was a relatively normal acting fandom with few weirdos then that Sharon Osbourne did her interview and that somehow gave a lot of these people the courage to act as senseless as they could because ofc taking the word of this not even Queen adjacent women who didn't know anyone she is talking about is completely fine lmao. This is what she said btw -

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But please don't give me the shit in that movie about Brian doing this, and Brian doing that. Brian [May] did what Freddie told him to do, and that's it. And you know what? It's like finally these two [Brian May and Roger Taylor] have got to their late 60's, and finally, finally, they have got the attention that they always wanted, but never got because of Freddie.

As you say, you watched Queen you didn't give a shit about anybody else. You were drawn to Freddie. And who did anyone want to write about? Nobody but Freddy. So there were these frustrated fuck musos that sat at home going, 'We hate Freddie. We hate Freddie.' And that was it."

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I actually watched the shift happen because people got the reason to let their hate finally run free.

I want to know how it’s 2023 and I’m just hearing of this. The fucking nerve of that piece of trash, god. What a brain dead thing to say and for no fucking reason.

Since I’ve literally never heard anyone cite that interview, I don’t know how much of a role it played in shifting fan opinion. I think that bullshit line of thinking had been around even before the movie, and then a bunch of dumbass Freddie stans who hated the movie jumped on that train, because they think Brian and Roger supporting the film means they don’t love Freddie as much as they do 🙄 Right before I deleted my insta account, I remember some dipshit justifying their Brian hate boner with “I’m always going to be Freddie’s warrior!” or some embarrassing shit

[awanderingcanadian]

Anniversaries of Sorts

As we move towards August, I have several ‘anniversaries’ coming up that bear recognition. I haven’t written for a while, in fact I’ve been absent really for the better part of a year. That’s not to say I haven’t written a ton in my mind, I just haven’t done anything with a keyboard. I don’t know why that is, but maybe it was to do with working through my losses and getting my head back in the right space? Who knows?

Back to the point of this post: August marks some significant anniversaries for me. Ironically, I seem to defining this as ‘before COVID’ and ‘after COVID’. Can you believe that in just 5 months we will be marking the 5th anniversary of the start of the pandemic? Where did those years go? I feel like we lost 3 years of our lives, but my 19 year old niece tells me differently. For her, she was finishing high school, graduating, and starting university: all significant milestones in a young life, but for me, they were the ‘lost years’. Perspective is everything. Again I digress…

August will mark 7 years since we moved to Scotland, and the start of a strange 3 years. Seven years!! It just seems like a few years ago. The plan, for those of you who don’t know or forgot, was that we live 2 years in Scotland, (with me working and Craig retired), then we would travel for a years. With that in mind, we signed a 3 year lease with the Crown, and on June 30, 2017 left our beautiful home for what was to be 3 years of fun and adventure.

Early August of 2017 we made the move. Having being born in Scotland, and having returned many times to see family, I thought I knew how it worked, but I didn’t. We spent the first 10 days chasing our tails: we couldn’t open a bank account without a UK address, we couldn’t get a phone plan without a bank account, and we couldn’t rent a place to live without both of the above. I had to get a National Insurance number, (the equivalent of a SIN or SS number for my North American friends), which ironically was the easiest part as I had a UK birth certificate. Within the first two weeks however, we had it all sorted, and had bought a car, a tv, and countless other items. Our big score was buying an inexpensive blender and getting a voucher for a case of wine for £25! Gosh, those were stressful, but heady days.

August, 2018 I unexpectedly returned to Canada, as Craig was denied a spousal visa. The short story is that the website was misleading, (that’s now been fixed), so we applied incorrectly, and the Home Office wasn’t lenient at all. Craig had to leave in June or be deported. We were the lead story one night on the news. But enough about that. Having no home to return to, we lived in our trailer off an on for months, and wintered in the home of a friend who went to central and South America for 4 months.

August, 2019 found us leaving for 11 months of travel. We booked flights to Heraklion, Greece and rented an apartment for a month, giving me a chance to rest up after leaving my job, and packing all of our belongings yet again. We bought insurance for a 330 day, multi-country trip, and we were off! What could go wrong?? Some of you might remember this time in our recent history…

August 2020 was a wash, nothing doing. August 2021 saw the border with the U.S. open from the Canadian side, but the same Americans who had been clamouring for the border to be open, decided to keep their side closed, (insert eye roll here). August 2022 we returned to Greece, yippee! August, 2023 we stayed home and had lots of people visit us!

But my favourite August anniversary will always be this one.

[mrthoughtbubbles]

Hi Yeet,

Today, I had my first session with my new counselor, and I kind of like how gentle he is when he talks and how he explains the topic at hand. We talked about depression and how to tackle it and he also wanted to see the things that trigger me so that he can understand my paranoia better. I just hope that he won’t one up me when I try to explain stuff, like telling me he did 10km walks whenever I try to explain that I do around certain number of steps...

Today, I kind of feel paranoid that at some point, something will happen to this account of mine and I won’t be able to write you messages anymore and I won’t have any way to contact you anymore… I’ve been getting veiled threats that it will happen, just like what happened to my IG... If that day comes, I would like to apologize for not being able to send you messages anymore…

Sometimes I wonder why I’m going through almost the same hell I went to before again… I admit that I watch porn and that I look at photos… There are times wherein I heard stuff on the news that there’s something that’s going around and I got curious and I searched for it on the image search and there I found unique photos on a certain website, named fapello, and since there was a time wherein we lost internet for 3 days, the automatic reaction would be to save the photos and videos on one’s hard drive…I just placed the image search photos I got with the Fapello photos together and the videos were in another folder… One can distinguish Fapello photos from the others because there’s a logo/watermark at the bottom of the photo, and since there’s a login botton at the top of the site, I’d assume that one needs an account to upload, which I don’t have and almost all my accounts that I have since 2018/2019, were in my accounts file, I would certainly put my account information there, since I won’t be able to remember all the information of all my accounts… There are accounts from way back that I don’t remember the password of but I was able to recover, like my old dropbox account from when I was still studying. Going back to Fapello, when there was lesser and lesser posts being posted on the said website I just stayed because of a certain person that I follow that still posts, someone’s nickname that sounds near to hee hee, and when she stopped posting for quite some time, I stopped going to the said site, which was around mid to late 2023

When October 2023 came, all hell happened… My mouse would be erratic and I tried to reformat but it didn’t work, I feel that I’m still being under surveillance and I’m being told to just accept the blame that I was the one who uploaded… I do admit that I went to the site, that I downloaded photos, but I won’t accept the blame that I uploaded photos to Fapello… I don’t have an account in Fapello, I don’t know how to photoshop… What’s odd to me is that when I realized who was pinning me, I assumed that the photos in Fapello would still be there, but when I went back to the site, the photos were erased… I even tried if the wayback machine would work, but it didn’t… I just know the basics of paint and when I need to put a photo with lines of text, I use presentation or powerpoint… As for AI, I don’t know what people do with those aside from asking questions… True, I used it once or twice to explain calculus, since I still feel that I don’t have a clue about the subject that I really dread to this day… I know a little bit about taking photos, like putting things in the center, but I’m clueless with editing… Remember the poster of the movie I watched last week or was it two weeks ago…? I just learned to use a sticker instead to hide the mall I was in since I don’t know how to cut the photo’s edges and just put the poster…

The people who look at what I do every day would know by now that day in and day out I mostly go to the same websites, like the adult manhwa, pornhub, eporner, and I’m still anxious about going to xvideos… I promised that I won’t go to Fapello, and Thotslife, and I’m anxious at going to 18kit or was it kit18… They know the accounts that I have and I can say that I never uploaded any photos or videos in them… They are mainly used to access and to organize videos and or to be able to download manga or to download downloadable content for my purchased games… As for whatever is going on in the news with regard to twitter, I used to use it to watch number updates with what’s happening with the war in Europe, but I stopped using twitter when Elon was asking $1 to verify people… I don’t want to spend money for something that I barely used…  

I’m sorry for telling you everything… I dread that I won’t be able to talk to you after today and I told you everything so that you’ll understand my perspective… I’m expecting the worst, and for every day that passes that I’m able to message you, I’ll be grateful for that… I understand that you might be turned off that I watch videos, look at photos, or play adult computer games… I’m sharing with you the parts about me that I don’t usually share to other people so that you’ll know this certain bad part about me… Anyway, I hope that you enjoyed your day today being around friends and family. I hope that you’ll be able to accept people for who they are - both the good and the bad. I hope that you’ll embrace your insecurities and know that you’re beautiful. I hope that you’ll appreciate and be grateful for having another day in this world that we live in(I also need to hear that because I’ve been in survival mode for a very long time now…) Good night, take care, enjoy everything, pray/talk to God, and remember that I love you, Yeet!

[threephantomrey]

history of my username since i feel like sharing rn:

ok so it actually goes wayyyy back to 2018. the OG version of this username was threedayspanic when i changed it to that on my old twitter account. it was because i liked Three Days Grace and Panic! At The Disco at the time (i still like Three Days Grace but i don’t like Panic! At The Disco anymore and haven’t for years now)

and then in January 2019 when i lost my old twitter account and made a new one (the one i’ve been using since 2019) i had to put it as 3dayspanicback and then threepanicdays because i couldn’t use my username for a while. and then when it let me, i used threedayspanic again until i changed it to threedaysrey in 2020, the rey being in that username because i liked Lana Del Rey at the time. (don’t like her anymore) then one of my former mutuals used rey as a nickname for me at some point during that year. (and then some time after that, people started calling me rey so it became one of my names online, so i decided to never remove that part of the username for that reason, and because it works too well. it’s too iconic to change)

and then i started using that username for other sites over time. and then in December 2021 when i felt like reinventing my fan account on instagram, i changed the username on there to threedaysscooby so that it would be like my username that i had on every other site, but ofc only about Scooby. and then in January 2022, when i lost my fan account to some stranger, i changed my username to threephantomrey on everything (and have been using it on another insta account that i made in November 2022) so that people wouldn’t think i was still behind that account anymore and the phantom part is there because i like Julie and the Phantoms (i said i was threedaysrey in the bio of that account before i lost it) and over time, i realized that i love it more than the threedaysrey username, so now i’m keeping it forever.

and there you go, that’s the history of my username.

[runnersnz]

“I have always enjoyed running. Growing up I have vague memories of running cross country and a bit of track. I was never fast enough for the sprints so leaned more towards the longer events. I may be wrong, but I have a memory of being told by a teacher when I was around 14 that I wasn’t a good enough runner to compete, or something like that. Anyways I gave up running on its own about this time and just focussed on team sports. 

I played basketball and volleyball but my main game was soccer which of course still involves running. I continued to run for personal health and fitness and to aid with my soccer. It was also just something I could do easily when I started travelling. I just enjoy the freedom of getting out in nature. I’ve also never really been comfortable with my body but the feeling I get when I’m running of being fit and strong makes me appreciate what it can do. I would run on the trails for the nature aspect and the solitude but I didn’t know that ‘trail running’ was an actual sport. 

I started to hear about some running races other than the typical road events and for some reason I decided to enter the 2018 Miner’s Trail as part of the Motatapu event. I self-generated a training plan with some on-line assistance, but really had no clue what I was doing. I ended up really enjoying the race and doing quite well considering. When my friend Katy suggested I run the Southern Lakes half marathon a couple of weeks later, I went for it and also did ok. Maybe I’d found an aspect of running that I was actually good enough at after all. I did a couple more road races and then I discovered more trail races and the world of ultra-running when I paced Katy for 50km of her first 100km race. I enjoyed figuring out a training regime that included different workouts with some speed and strength components and I enjoyed seeing the results. I’m quite competitive so running became a way to stoke that fire outside of team sports. 

In 2019 I got a coach, Lance Smith, who is a legend and was instrumental in my initial development. The last 5 years have been a constant learning path, with many ups and downs, as I navigate this sport and how to get the best out of myself. I continue to run because I still just love getting into the outdoors, enjoying the beauty of nature and exploring places at a faster pace. It’s also the time when I can completely tune out everything else in life and just feel free. I continue to race to challenge myself, to grow and develop as an athlete and also for the competition. 

I gave up soccer a few years ago as I wanted to focus on something where I was the only one accountable. However, I have since learned that although running seems like an individual sport, it really does take a support team to get me to the places I want to go at the level I want to be at. Trail running has also introduced me to a whole new community of people all around the world that I haven’t found with anything else before. I am forever grateful for the immediate team of people around me as well as the wider community who has accepted me for me. I hope to continue to race and explore my potential for as long as I can but more importantly I hope to be able to run and explore the natural world for even longer.”

Jessica @jessgriffcampbell (Christchurch) Photo taken at the Kepler Challenge – Portraits of Runners + their stories @RunnersNZ

[teenmomcentral]

Kail Lowry recently got a blast from her past: a Facebook message from her long-lost mother, Suzi Irwin.

During the most-recent episode of her Coffee Convos podcast, Kail told her co-host Lindsie Chrisley that she was shocked to see a Facebook message from her mother, whom she has not spoken to in years.

(As Teen Mom 2 fans know, Kail has had a very strained relationship with Suzi for the majority of her life, due in part to Suzi’s alcoholism. Suzi has only met two of Kail’s seven kids because of this.)

Kail mentioned Suzi on a podcast episode several weeks ago, which may have prompted Suzi to reach out.

“I get on [Facebook] Messenger, and my mom messaged me,” Kail said on Thursday’s episode. “I think [the message said], ‘I love you, and I always will,’ or something like that…It took me a minute, but I messaged her back, ‘Then how could you walk this earth knowing that you have all these grandkids and you don’t care?’

“And her response to that really pissed me off,” Kail continued. “Because she goes back and forth with [taking] accountability [for her past actions].”

Kail stated that, previously, she had taken Suzi’s accountability as “not an apology but at least an acknowledgement. 

“At least you know what you did and, you may not be sorry, but maybe that was your best [parenting]? I don’t know,” she said. “But you acknowledged [what you did], cool.” 

However, Suzi’s response to what Kail wrote about her not seeing her grandkids shocked Kail.

“I just wasn’t prepared for that. She was like, ‘And your life? Walk a mile.’ And I was like, ‘Ma’am, you made my life hard. You very much f**ked me up. You chose whatever your life [was going to be].’ To this day, from all accounts that I have gotten about my mom’s life, my mom did not live a very difficult life. My mom chose a difficult [life]. She went down a path that ultimately…contributed to the life she’s living now. 

“…I don’t understand how you can say ‘Walk a mile’ when you chose that,” Kail continued. 

Kail’s interaction with her mom was short-lived, as Kail stated that Suzi ended up blocking her on Facebook. 

“That was the first conversation that we’ve had since she called me in 2019,” she said. (That convo played out on an episode of ‘Teen Mom 2,’ by the way.) “Right before that, she…called me because my grandmother passed away. So I’ve had three conversations with her in six years. And I haven’t seen her. ‘Walk a mile’ was the last thing she said to me.” 

Kail stated that she believes Suzi is happy and has accepted her life, and now expects Kail to accept what happened in her childhood and “sweep it under the rug.”

“My mom, she doesn’t deny [that that things happened] but I may never get an apology from her,” Kail said. “But I’ve accepted the relationship for what it is.”

As fans may remember, back in 2009 when Kail was still a minor and pregnant with her son Isaac, Suzi signed over custody to the parents of Kail’s then-boyfriend Jo Rivera. Suzi drifted out of Kail’s life, but eventually resurfaced when Kail’s second son Lincoln was about six months old. 

“There was a time where I left Lincoln with her,” Kail said in 2018. “When I came back, she was so f**ked up.”

Kail once again cut her mom off after that, meaning Suzi has never met Kail’s sons Lux, Creed and Rio, or her newborn twins. 

During an Instagram Q&A last year, Kail was asked if she ever misses Suzi. 

“This is such a complex question,” Kail replied. “So she was never a mom to me but oddly, yes, I miss her. And I say oddly because I’ve always said you can’t miss what you never had. But I want a mom. I wish I had a mom — not even for me. But a grandmother for my kids.”

Kail discussed Suzi during an episode of her Barely Famous podcast last July, noting that she sees herself making many of the same mistakes Suzi made in regards to having lots of men around while Kail was growing up. 

“I very much did what she did, 100 percent, and I can’t deny that,” Kail said on the podcast. “It’s heartbreaking to see it, and know it and acknowledge it, and to know that at this point, the only thing I can do is acknowledge it, apologize, and try to help [my kids] heal through it.”

“I think that I did perpetuate the cycle of a lot,” Kail said. 

During a 2018 episode of Coffee Convos, Kail said she will never accept her mother’s drinking problem.

“I have a hard time with that,” Kail said. “I don’t have any sympathy or empathy or whatever you want to call it. I don’t have it for my mom, and it’s hard for me. I want to have a relationship with her but am I going to be OK with it if she’s not sober all the time…I don’t think my mom recognizes she has a problem, or if she does recognize, she doesn’t want help.”

[dogwittaablog]

oh god i got into hockey during 2019-20 when nolpat was all the hype and his off putting nature and autistic tendency just really intrigued me. I haven’t been able to consume any content remotely about him since he got out on ltir (and then got traded and not being on the cup when his team won) since I was also a pretty competitive athlete who had to drop out because of my body no longer being compatible so it’s a sore spot for me. Literally my heart would sink to my stomach any time I see his name in the past year or so and tonight is the first time I’ve been brave enough to search his name up and check up on how bros doin. and when i say you account helped so much?? idk how maybe it’s the nolstagia of the good days™️ or if this nolpat fan page serve as a reminder that he (or just athletes in general) don’t lose their inherent value as people just because they cannot perform in their sport anymore

anyways sorry for rambling in your askbox all i’m tryna say it pls PLEase don’t delete your account when he eventually officially retire it’d really suck if all of this becomes lost media or smth also i need some form of reminder that i’m not going insane and hallucinated him into existence in a bout of mania to cope with my former athlete™️ feelings

*I’m all good for people wanting to ramble, one of the reasons I made this page was to be able go on and on myself, so I’m all here for others to do so as well!*

Nolpats was part of my teenage adolescence from 16-17. Was up on here during 2017-late 2018, but never ran an account. After a while I just lost interest and forgot he existed for the longest time. Couple months ago, I literally saw a pic of him come up on my Pinterest and I was like hmm let me see how he’s doing. Boy oh boy this sent me into a whole ass rabbit hole, and I started playing catch up.

I was just not expecting any of the things I was going to read up, literally the more I find out about him/his career the worst it just got. So I was out here shook and gutted.

I also realized how many people just stopped caring about him too. It was probably cause he was barely playing and hes a private individual, so I think interest got lost because there wasn’t anything to entertain.

I made this page really for shits and giggles, I think deep down it was for 16yr old me too. I’m a bit older now and less naive, so I also wanted to be able to talk about certain topics and things, that most people would’ve crucified you back then for. Especially because there was such a big uwufication on him. I love nolpats but I’m also aware and transparent on the reality of who he can be as a person.

*There’s just been stuff I stumbled upon and I’m like wait why was nobody freaking out and having full on convos about it, im not even talking about serious stuff but there’s some funny af shit I see and go why didn’t anyone host a 5 hour seminar about this?*